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date: 29 May 2010, 12.40pm.drinking: Plain Water.
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Date posted: Friday, May 14, 2010;
Time: 12:44 AM
Firstly; most impt thing to say to my lovely Hubby....
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY & HAPPY MARRIAGE TO BOTH OF US :D :D
Our big day has just gone pass like tt but it was a beautiful & happy day we both had together & it will always be remembered in our heart & mind :) I love you Hubby!!! Thanks for giving me such a beautiful memory & day. Well kept in my mind & heart (: (:
See, time flies...Now I'm married & a mother-to-be...Its going to be a super big step to take...Hoping I can cope well with everything...
Sometimes you are not what you want to be, but the situation force you to be what you have to be. It's not easy & no one say its going to be easy. Hope I can cope well :)
Firstly; most impt thing to say to my lovely Hubby....
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY & HAPPY MARRIAGE TO BOTH OF US :D :D
Our big day has just gone pass like tt but it was a beautiful & happy day we both had together & it will always be remembered in our heart & mind :) I love you Hubby!!! Thanks for giving me such a beautiful memory & day. Well kept in my mind & heart (: (:
See, time flies...Now I'm married & a mother-to-be...Its going to be a super big step to take...Hoping I can cope well with everything...
Sometimes you are not what you want to be, but the situation force you to be what you have to be. It's not easy & no one say its going to be easy. Hope I can cope well :)
Date posted: Sunday, February 14, 2010;
Time: 9:25 PM
HAPPY TIGER NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE!!!!
Well well, a new year to begin with!! Quite looking forward to it actually..I hope this year will be a good year for everyone!! Lets heng heng all the way!!~ HUAT AHHH HUAT AHH HUAT AHH!!!!
This year Valentine's day & CNY happens to be the same day!! Is it a good thing? Hmmm....Might not be I guess!!~ My first V.day but Baby not here with me ): He went JB to visit his relatives...Nvm, everyday will be V.day...Have to say this to myself so I will feel better...LOL!!~
Anw, though this year dont really have the ambience of CNY but still I enjoy the gathering with my relatives..The feeling is really great, the laughters and our chit chat topics!! Wee~~ Hope the CNY gathering wont stop...
Don't know how I feel right now, don't feel very good also...This year I will offend ppl cause of my attitude..Really have serious attitude problem..Have to think before I act...Hope this will go away quickly... (:
Things are already different...It will never be like the same before...
HAPPY TIGER NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE!!!!
Well well, a new year to begin with!! Quite looking forward to it actually..I hope this year will be a good year for everyone!! Lets heng heng all the way!!~ HUAT AHHH HUAT AHH HUAT AHH!!!!
This year Valentine's day & CNY happens to be the same day!! Is it a good thing? Hmmm....Might not be I guess!!~ My first V.day but Baby not here with me ): He went JB to visit his relatives...Nvm, everyday will be V.day...Have to say this to myself so I will feel better...LOL!!~
Anw, though this year dont really have the ambience of CNY but still I enjoy the gathering with my relatives..The feeling is really great, the laughters and our chit chat topics!! Wee~~ Hope the CNY gathering wont stop...
Don't know how I feel right now, don't feel very good also...This year I will offend ppl cause of my attitude..Really have serious attitude problem..Have to think before I act...Hope this will go away quickly... (:
Things are already different...It will never be like the same before...
Date posted: Thursday, January 28, 2010;
Time: 11:23 PM
Happy 9th month Baby!!
But you're outstation so no way to celebrate also...
Just want to let you know I Love You!!~
& Back to post again....
Well well well, Baby is outstation again...This time 2 weeks...What if is going to be 2 months? Omg...Really hate Baby to be outstation... It sucks!!! ): ): ):
This week is really difficult to pass..Everyday waiting for him to be online, always late night...Hais...So many thoughts in my mind...When bf is going to be outstation often, in order to maintain the r/s well, the most impt thing is trust for one another...Its easy to say but difficult to do...Action always speak louder than words...Hmmm....
I will trust him & Baby, you must give me your trust ok? Waiting for you to be back..
I love you...
Good news this year, solid 2010..Not going to mention anything now but I'm looking forward to it... (:
17 Apr, the day I'm looking forward to...The once in a lifetime day for me to be princess & the story is really going to begin, living happily ever after (: (:
Mood swings are really terrible...Wait sad, wait happy, wait attitude...Can I stop all those mood swings??? ):
Happy 9th month Baby!!
But you're outstation so no way to celebrate also...
Just want to let you know I Love You!!~
& Back to post again....
Well well well, Baby is outstation again...This time 2 weeks...What if is going to be 2 months? Omg...Really hate Baby to be outstation... It sucks!!! ): ): ):
This week is really difficult to pass..Everyday waiting for him to be online, always late night...Hais...So many thoughts in my mind...When bf is going to be outstation often, in order to maintain the r/s well, the most impt thing is trust for one another...Its easy to say but difficult to do...Action always speak louder than words...Hmmm....
I will trust him & Baby, you must give me your trust ok? Waiting for you to be back..
I love you...
Good news this year, solid 2010..Not going to mention anything now but I'm looking forward to it... (:
17 Apr, the day I'm looking forward to...The once in a lifetime day for me to be princess & the story is really going to begin, living happily ever after (: (:
Mood swings are really terrible...Wait sad, wait happy, wait attitude...Can I stop all those mood swings??? ):
Date posted: Tuesday, December 29, 2009;
Time: 1:10 AM
Happy 8th month Baby!!
I love you super deep deep!!~
Year 2009 is getting out of my way soon!! & Year 2010 is coming already! Quite excited for the brand new year! Because it'll be a brand new start for me. Going to work hard after I get a job, save money & put full attention on my Baby & family! They are always the most important people in my life!
First christmas spent with Baby, First countdown for 2010 with Baby~ Woo!!~ Happy :D :D
Baby, I love you!!!~
Happy 8th month Baby!!
I love you super deep deep!!~
Year 2009 is getting out of my way soon!! & Year 2010 is coming already! Quite excited for the brand new year! Because it'll be a brand new start for me. Going to work hard after I get a job, save money & put full attention on my Baby & family! They are always the most important people in my life!
First christmas spent with Baby, First countdown for 2010 with Baby~ Woo!!~ Happy :D :D
Baby, I love you!!!~
Date posted: Thursday, December 17, 2009;
Time: 11:48 PM
I think no one is reading my blog anymore cause they thought its dead already :) So I'll just say my things here...
Baby is back & this cheer me up today (: See his cute little face with his bright smile, always make me smile (: My sunshine :D :D
So many things happened this year & some things, no one knows about it. I used to say everything out to my loved ones but now, I chose to keep everything to myself. All I do is only cry & cry & cry!!!!!! Cause it always make me feel better but this always never solve the problem. & it really pissed me off, but what can I do? What should I do? What is it that is missing? Courage??? Bb used to tell me to have more courage, I want to but what's stopping me? Sometimes, I really envy ladies with courage, able to fight for themselves but me? Not at all.....Only know how to hide from problems, depend on people....
Now, family also got problem. Making me feel so stupid & useless! Stupid, really stupid!! Is not that I'm not understanding or I don't know what happen. I know everything. You all say I everytime say 'I know, I know' but actually I don't know anything. Perhaps, maybe I am?? I don't even know what am I thinking. I just felt so helpless. Nowadays not having a good sleep, dreaming all the stupid damn bad things! Year 2009, really a torture to me. Cry more than having a good laugh ): Problems will never stop coming & happiness will only come in a period of time. WTF!! No wonder so many people are having so many sickness....!! Can everything be better??
Baby, I'm sorry about just now. I really didn't hear you saying that, maybe I'm not concentrating at all. I should have think of you too!!! Too many things in my head, really very tired. Just want to seek some of your understanding, just want you to be there for me can already. It hurt just now, but nvm. It's all over. I still love you!!~ (: I also want things to go well, trying my best to think of solutions but...Nvm... Seeyou soon le. I love you!
Well, interview tomorrow, wish me luck cause no one wish me any luck yet till now~ ):
Her christmas wish:-
1. Wishing that Year 2010 & following years will be better for her & her loved ones.
2. Wishing that everything will goes smoothly in r/s, family & work.
3. Wishing to be able to study further if I can.
4. To have more & more courage from now on & in the following years.
5. Lastly, World Peace :D
I think no one is reading my blog anymore cause they thought its dead already :) So I'll just say my things here...
Baby is back & this cheer me up today (: See his cute little face with his bright smile, always make me smile (: My sunshine :D :D
So many things happened this year & some things, no one knows about it. I used to say everything out to my loved ones but now, I chose to keep everything to myself. All I do is only cry & cry & cry!!!!!! Cause it always make me feel better but this always never solve the problem. & it really pissed me off, but what can I do? What should I do? What is it that is missing? Courage??? Bb used to tell me to have more courage, I want to but what's stopping me? Sometimes, I really envy ladies with courage, able to fight for themselves but me? Not at all.....Only know how to hide from problems, depend on people....
Now, family also got problem. Making me feel so stupid & useless! Stupid, really stupid!! Is not that I'm not understanding or I don't know what happen. I know everything. You all say I everytime say 'I know, I know' but actually I don't know anything. Perhaps, maybe I am?? I don't even know what am I thinking. I just felt so helpless. Nowadays not having a good sleep, dreaming all the stupid damn bad things! Year 2009, really a torture to me. Cry more than having a good laugh ): Problems will never stop coming & happiness will only come in a period of time. WTF!! No wonder so many people are having so many sickness....!! Can everything be better??
Baby, I'm sorry about just now. I really didn't hear you saying that, maybe I'm not concentrating at all. I should have think of you too!!! Too many things in my head, really very tired. Just want to seek some of your understanding, just want you to be there for me can already. It hurt just now, but nvm. It's all over. I still love you!!~ (: I also want things to go well, trying my best to think of solutions but...Nvm... Seeyou soon le. I love you!
Well, interview tomorrow, wish me luck cause no one wish me any luck yet till now~ ):
Her christmas wish:-
1. Wishing that Year 2010 & following years will be better for her & her loved ones.
2. Wishing that everything will goes smoothly in r/s, family & work.
3. Wishing to be able to study further if I can.
4. To have more & more courage from now on & in the following years.
5. Lastly, World Peace :D
Date posted: Wednesday, December 16, 2009;
Time: 8:48 PM
Baby is out of town!!! ): ):
Year 2009 is finally going to end and here comes 2010!!~ Really hope everything will be better!! This year really sucks to the core!! Everything has not been going smoothly for me, really pissed me off! But still w/ Baby around, things has always been better~
Baby is out of town!!! ): ):
I always can't bear to see him leave :(
& next month is the longest period of time he'll be out of town :(
Anw, I love this pic loads & Baby love this too~
Baby, I miss you super super duper duper much!!! Faster come back la you!!~ Ppl waiting for you here liaos you know!! Hee :D :D
Tomorrow gg airport to pick Baby up!!!~ Wee!! Super happy! Can't wait for tomorrow to come!! :D
I want/wish/pray/hope 2010 & the remaining years to be better for me & Baby too!! Unlike this year for me. Hais ):
Christmas is cominggg!! First Christmas spent with him <3
I love you Baby, always!!!~ MUACK!!! :D
Date posted: Monday, November 30, 2009;
Time: 8:37 PM
HAPPY 7th MONTH BABY!!
Our love will always stay strong & happy. You're all I ever wanted in my life.
You're and will be my future. I love you always!!!!
HAPPY 7th MONTH BABY!!
Our love will always stay strong & happy. You're all I ever wanted in my life.
You're and will be my future. I love you always!!!!
Back from Taiwan trip for more than a week alr (:
Was waiting for Taiwan trip to come the last few weeks and now I'm back from Taiwan!! & I miss Taiwan, all our lovely memories there!!! :D :D :D
Anyway, things wasn't as smooth as it goes last few days. But I'm glad & happy that we managed to sort things out properly. Not going to mention what actually happened but still, I'm guilty for all the things that happened. Heart really ache so much at the period of time but now it's already healing and I hope you're healing too (:
Still, wanting to tell you I really love you lots Baby!!! I will keep all my promises made to you and you too :) I know I'm very important to you because you're equally important to me. We know we can't afford to lose each other and we won't make all these happen to us. Everything is worth it for you. I'm not going to say so much here because I want to tell you in person. Hee (: I love you Baby, always & forever!!
Our love are still staying strong (:
Date posted: Monday, November 09, 2009;
Time: 1:42 PM
Taiwan, I am coming!!~~ :D :D
Super excited!! Have to take super lots of pictures!! :)
Will update once I am back!
& I love you, Baby!! ♥
Taiwan, I am coming!!~~ :D :D
Super excited!! Have to take super lots of pictures!! :)
Will update once I am back!
& I love you, Baby!! ♥
Date posted: Wednesday, October 28, 2009;
Time: 11:06 PM
♥ HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DEAR!!!
My loveliest, sweetest & cutest boy of mine!!I love you deeply!~
We're together 1/2 a year already...& Soon, it'll be 1 year.!! Let our love continue burning!! Hahahah!! Anw, just want to tell you I love you super duper much!! Remember we must be honest to each other ok? (: I love you dear~ MUACK!!! ♥
Thanks for everything...
♥ HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DEAR!!!
My loveliest, sweetest & cutest boy of mine!!I love you deeply!~
We're together 1/2 a year already...& Soon, it'll be 1 year.!! Let our love continue burning!! Hahahah!! Anw, just want to tell you I love you super duper much!! Remember we must be honest to each other ok? (: I love you dear~ MUACK!!! ♥
Thanks for everything...
Date posted: ;
Time: 10:32 PM
This year definitely not a good year for me...Many things happen, many things change...
Is not I dont wish to tell you guys, is I dont even know how to start telling you guys..
I chose to keep everything to myself..& I realise that make me very miserable..
I really weaken alot, no longer that strong girl smiling all the way...
I want back my smile...
This year definitely not a good year for me...Many things happen, many things change...
Is not I dont wish to tell you guys, is I dont even know how to start telling you guys..
I chose to keep everything to myself..& I realise that make me very miserable..
I really weaken alot, no longer that strong girl smiling all the way...
I want back my smile...
Date posted: Tuesday, October 20, 2009;
Time: 12:52 AM
Baby is out of town ):
Baby is leaving for KL for business trip tomorrow morning ): I will miss him~ Faster come back!!
Well, dinner with Baby's family.. A happy dinner with them today, felt being part of them (: I love them & Baby!!
Been tog with Baby for coming 1/2 a year already (: Looking forward for more months & years to come.. Lets build up our small little house very soon. Hee~
Baby, I will always remember what you'd said to me the other day! I will always be there for you~ MUACK!!!! :D :D
I LOVE YOU BABY!!!! ♥
And exam is coming & it falls on the Sunday! Totally spoil my weekend mood! :/ Hope my studies faster end!! February faster come!! (: Have to study while Baby's is out of town so I have more time for him on Friday :)
2 Things to count down:
1) Taiwan Trip: Another 23 more days, Yippee!!~~ I'm so looking forward to this trip! First overseas aeroplane trip with him!!~
2) My last day in ofc: Another 11 more days (exl sat & sun). I will definitely miss lunching with Baby & miss see-ing Baby in office ):
Negative thoughts will lead to negative things to happen... I will try my best to put all those negative stuffs out of my head...
Baby is out of town ):
Baby is leaving for KL for business trip tomorrow morning ): I will miss him~ Faster come back!!
Well, dinner with Baby's family.. A happy dinner with them today, felt being part of them (: I love them & Baby!!
Been tog with Baby for coming 1/2 a year already (: Looking forward for more months & years to come.. Lets build up our small little house very soon. Hee~
Baby, I will always remember what you'd said to me the other day! I will always be there for you~ MUACK!!!! :D :D
I LOVE YOU BABY!!!! ♥
And exam is coming & it falls on the Sunday! Totally spoil my weekend mood! :/ Hope my studies faster end!! February faster come!! (: Have to study while Baby's is out of town so I have more time for him on Friday :)
2 Things to count down:
1) Taiwan Trip: Another 23 more days, Yippee!!~~ I'm so looking forward to this trip! First overseas aeroplane trip with him!!~
2) My last day in ofc: Another 11 more days (exl sat & sun). I will definitely miss lunching with Baby & miss see-ing Baby in office ):
Negative thoughts will lead to negative things to happen... I will try my best to put all those negative stuffs out of my head...